I don't feel like thinking about anything. I don't feel like thinking about things I normally like to think about. Today while I was looking at bills I said to my mom, "Life is awesome," and she said, "Life is awesome," then she paused, then she said, "Frustrating, hard, awesome." I repeated what she said and then I signed a check. I do not feel like explaining anything. I don't feel like doing what I'm doing right now but I am afraid if I don't do it I will feel even worse. Last night I couldn't sleep again until I ate a ton of breakfast cereal at 7 AM and then I fell asleep holding my stomach. I am very familiar with the way one's mouth smells when you eat milk and then don't brush and then sleep for a few hours and then wake up. Sometimes sitting in this chair for too long makes me feel like I could ________________. I can't think of a word. i don't know a word i am tired of everything i am tired i dont know what else to say or think about i dont know why i dont